Confrontations

Well I had an interesting weekend. I spent Saturday evening at a symphony, being a very out lesbian/pan-girl in a church with numerous older folk. The stares and gawks were enjoyable for once. I'm not sure why we felt we could be out, I suppose it was defiance more than anything. Very enjoyable none the less. Sunday was less so, while I got to see an old sister of mine, I was apparently read by my girlfriend's father.

Troubling news. It was the first time I've really been read in a while by someone, and I haven't any idea what it was that gave me away. Needless to say I didn't take it well. I had believed myself rather successful in passing to the people I was meeting, and having that confidence shattered didn't exactly sit well.

This morning, things got even worse. I managed to announce my unreciprocated feelings for my girlfriend, leaving me feeling even more vulnerable and depressed. Follow this up with my normal round of electrolysis inspired self loathing and you get my concoction for a shitty day. I did talk to the girlfriend a bit, but the overall feelings of dread, and negativity are persistent throughout.