So, Life is life, no? I know I should have updated LONG ago, but thinks have been insane. At least now though that I'm done with school (for the summer) I can rest up a bit and make some cash (hopefully) and ponder the meanings of life and all that crap.
So, news? I have an appointment with an endo on Tuesday, that should hopefully get me on HRT in the coming weeks depending on when..I can get things scheduled and what not. This should help me out in a lot of ways, many of which I'm not in the mood to type out, but I think it will help out with my mental stability a bit. I also learned of some possible insurance companies that might cover some things, which would be nice, but as always...I'm not holding my breath.
Aside from the pyschological changes, It will be good to at least halt the further masculinization of my body, and finally get this plague under control. Of course this pushes other deadlines up, My voice is going to have to get better faster, and the like, but I don't think there will become a point where I can't be simply androdgenous.
So what has prompted me to write suddenly? Well as always I generally write when I'm feeling less than ideal. The cause of it this time is some...backhanded compliments and small slights that people don't realize they make. I know these people mean well, but I just wish they would actually pay compliments, or at least keep their mouth shut if they don't have the nicest things to say. I have no desire to hear about how well I imitate, or how un-guy like I appear. Would you say that to your girlfriends? I didn't think so.
Ack, there is just so much crap built up. I don't think i'm going to bother playing guitar with my brother anymore. It simply isn't any fun anymore. While we may both play the same instrument, we play vastly different songs. I'm tired of going over there to have the two of us grow bored when the other doesn't know a particular song. There was once an idea of having a band work out, but I think those days are gone. I think pretty soon will come the point where the two of us simply part ways, as we don't really have that much in common anymore aside from parents.
I miss my romantic interest. She is across the country at the moment, in New York, and I would love to be there with her, but that simply isn't realistic. She's only gone for a week, but I still miss her. It has been nice to have someone to vent and express myself to, who doesn't question or give a wandering eye to my idiosyncracies. *sigh*
I digress. Anyway, things are progressing. I'm working on changing my name also, while I've decided on a name, It is still a matter of funds (when is it not). It should cost around $350 total to get it done around here, so I'm thinking about trying to get that done this summer.
I have this push to my transition, in that I've set goals and it at times seems like i'm rushing things, but I know if I allow myself anytime to relax, that nothing will ever get done. I want to have most of this crap done by the end of my 20s. So far I've got a couple of those years having not done anything transition wise. So...I've got a lot of ground to make up.
Anyways, I'm much to scatterbrained to continue rambling on like this..so..adieu for now.
So, news? I have an appointment with an endo on Tuesday, that should hopefully get me on HRT in the coming weeks depending on when..I can get things scheduled and what not. This should help me out in a lot of ways, many of which I'm not in the mood to type out, but I think it will help out with my mental stability a bit. I also learned of some possible insurance companies that might cover some things, which would be nice, but as always...I'm not holding my breath.
Aside from the pyschological changes, It will be good to at least halt the further masculinization of my body, and finally get this plague under control. Of course this pushes other deadlines up, My voice is going to have to get better faster, and the like, but I don't think there will become a point where I can't be simply androdgenous.
So what has prompted me to write suddenly? Well as always I generally write when I'm feeling less than ideal. The cause of it this time is some...backhanded compliments and small slights that people don't realize they make. I know these people mean well, but I just wish they would actually pay compliments, or at least keep their mouth shut if they don't have the nicest things to say. I have no desire to hear about how well I imitate, or how un-guy like I appear. Would you say that to your girlfriends? I didn't think so.
Ack, there is just so much crap built up. I don't think i'm going to bother playing guitar with my brother anymore. It simply isn't any fun anymore. While we may both play the same instrument, we play vastly different songs. I'm tired of going over there to have the two of us grow bored when the other doesn't know a particular song. There was once an idea of having a band work out, but I think those days are gone. I think pretty soon will come the point where the two of us simply part ways, as we don't really have that much in common anymore aside from parents.
I miss my romantic interest. She is across the country at the moment, in New York, and I would love to be there with her, but that simply isn't realistic. She's only gone for a week, but I still miss her. It has been nice to have someone to vent and express myself to, who doesn't question or give a wandering eye to my idiosyncracies. *sigh*
I digress. Anyway, things are progressing. I'm working on changing my name also, while I've decided on a name, It is still a matter of funds (when is it not). It should cost around $350 total to get it done around here, so I'm thinking about trying to get that done this summer.
I have this push to my transition, in that I've set goals and it at times seems like i'm rushing things, but I know if I allow myself anytime to relax, that nothing will ever get done. I want to have most of this crap done by the end of my 20s. So far I've got a couple of those years having not done anything transition wise. So...I've got a lot of ground to make up.
Anyways, I'm much to scatterbrained to continue rambling on like this..so..adieu for now.
