Incoherence

Sometimes I wonder why I get ahead of myself on some things. I knew how things were, I suppose I was just hoping/deluding myself to think they were somehow different. At least this isn't anything new, and it doesn't hurt as much as it used to, but it was still bothersome.

The feeling loneliness and abandonment that comes with it doesn't help though. School starts up again soon, and it will be good to see everyone again. I just yearn to be comfortable again. I think being with someone would help, but I've no idea who that would be.