detachment

I'm feeling pretty detached from things now. I've spent so much time escaping that everything just feels pretty numb. At least in an internal retrospective sort of way. I may see my ex tomorrow, but I'm not sure how it is going to feel. I imagine I will simply distance myself and be remote. Not that it is a strategy that is known to work, but it seems to at least make things tolerable.

Some days are better than others, I still find myself crying a good amount of the time.