More Resources and updates

Well I recently rented The Praeger Handbook of Transsexuality It is a pretty good read, and has a lot of good information, I'm thinking about buying a copy, but I can wait on that. I did get some good sites out of it

transwoman.tripod.com
Annelawrence.com/twr/
Ai.eecs.umich.edu/people/conway/conway.html

They all have a lot of good useful information, one thing I was wondering was if post op women were arroused in much the same way genetic women do. They do, which is a great weight off my mind as I had been curious about that for a good while.

In other news, i've rethemed my desktop again, now its pink and black and white, Its quite cute and I think I'll keep it like this for awhile...or at least until I get tired of it. (pics included)

I've been puting some thought into my thesis, though I should probably not worry about that as much until I get a bit more close to writing it, but it is a bit ...much to think about, hopefully I can get a clearer picture of what all is involved in it down the line, though it is neat to think I will be a published author once it is done.

Which leads me to another issue...names. I've already got a name I like picked out, but that doesn't really help me in dealing with my resume, and how I alter that. Will I need to get my degrees reissued? Can I even do that?  It seems pretty silly to get a degree if I have to leave it off my resume because it isn't in my new name.

Anyways, I've been fighting depression this week, I should have gone to therapy on Tuesday but had to reschedule for a thesis seminar. Seems i'm having to tell myself "just hold it together" more often this week than most. I had some people ask me about what was wrong, but getting advice from people you are close to, but not really connected to never really seems to do much good. I am however, as always, a wonderful actress. Most of it I can pass off as stress (as a good deal of my emotional burdons are) but it is just easier to pass it off to people who don't really grasp the concept than to bother explaining it in a way they would understand.

But...whatever, life is what it is.

Isn't it cute



And one more...

Purple

So a bit of an update, I still haven't gotten word on my graduate application, so hopefully tomorrow or so. I told a friend of mine that I would take some head shots of her since she is moving to New York to attend a dance/sing/Broadway type of school (the name escapes me) and needs some good shots. However, I'm also going to have to another assignment that same day.

I was going to write a long rant about group projects and how they are being overused for no reason, don't really teach us anything, and make life more difficult. But that sentence works just as well.

Also on a short note, financial markets: poop. The end.

So where does that bring us? Well, I haven't yet called things off with the romantic interest, I think I am just going to ...slow it down a bit and add some space there to insulate me from her for a bit. At least until I can figure out how to adapt to this. As I mentioned in the prior entry, I have been utilizing youtube a bit, and have found a lot of inspiration in it. Maybe all hope isn't lost just yet (just the majority of it). I'm trying to stay positive, but as always, fatalism is my plague.

Youtube: Resources & More

I'm not sure If I've spoken about the vast resources and encouragement
on youtube, but here are a few i've been watching. Note that, as with
all popular social networks, there is a huge supply of assholes to
voice their abhorred opinions about anything their feeble minds doesn't comprehend.

That said, onto the goods:

CandiFLA
- For some reason I just find her hilarious. She has a pretty good
instruction getting a female voice. The earlier videos are a bit rigid,
but after she loosens up and gets into her groove she kills.

My current favorite of hers is the 10 reasons to date transsexuals...Note that if offends pretty much everyone, but its meant to be taken lightly.

Karmatic1110
For those wanting a bit more...edge. I love her opinions, and I love
how she isn't afraid to give them to you. I haven't watched to many of
her videos, but she has a good voice lesson also.

But alas, I
did finally register a youtube account, perhaps I will post videos, but
at this point I think my skill is in written words, vs video. My
roommate however does well with video, so perhaps that may turn into
something.