Tracking the Changes pt II & an update.

So not a whole lot new in the changes this fortnight. I've noticed that my right breast is definitely developing faster than my left, but I'm told this is normal. There is definitely what feels to be pockets of fluid behind my nipples. This appears to be normal according to my reading, but it is still kinda strange to me. Aside from that I find myself more moody, and prone to fits of angst than before. 

I had my first day of school in femme yesterday, it went pretty well all things considering. I didn't go to class, but to my social organization, which is obviously a bit more understanding than regular classes. I was a bit apprehensive at first, but I got used to it (like I do everything) after a bit. I'm still having trouble with my voice though, which is what makes me the most uncomfortable. I think if I could get that somewhat working I would feel much more comfortable in going out, as it is I am going out in femme with my normal voice and it irks me. It is something that I am trying to work on though =\.

Awakening

Okay, So I've been MIA, and for that I apologize, but writing has always been an expression of negative emotions for me, so in this case, no news is good news.

But, for a change, this is a note on positive change. So I've started HRT; I started on my birthday with testosterone blockers, and had my first injection the week after, next Thursday will be month two, and when people say the changes are noticeable. I however, have already seen some changes. I hope this means I will progress rapidly. I've always felt my body was potentially genetically aimed to take well to HRT, and this seems to confirm that...however I know that it doesn't mean it is necessarily so.

Anyways, this is going to be a chaotic two years as I'm still going to school and flirting on both sides of the gender continuum. While my body becomes more female, i'm going to have to manage those changes along with my social/work/school life to maintain a sort of balance and sanity. Interesting feat indeed, if I can pull it off. However I have a fairly amazing support base, which I am very grateful for. My family is coming along, it is against the grain for some of them, but they are still progressing and getting used to it. My friends are, and always have been supportive and I love them for all that they do for me.

In short, things could be a lot worse. Not that everything is bright-sunshine-shoved-down-your-throat happy. My finances are in dire straits, and I've got to find a job ASAP, but ...I'm optimistic, and for the first time in awhile, despite the negatives, I feel good.  I know some of it is do to being independent again (I moved back out on my own for school), and it is very liberating. Its nice to be optimistic for a change.

I'm still managing these changes, and they aren't..easy, it isn't natural to me just yet, so there are some teething pains, but...I'm taking it as it comes, and dealing with what I can, when I can.

My romantic life is entertaining. I love my partner, and while we seem to have our issues, more so than I would like, we manage to work them out in a mature way, which is a nice change. Something still...irks me on the inside though, and while I still can't put my finger on it, even when I try to analyse it, it vexes me. I'll figure it out though...eventually lol.

So, now that I'm back...and sane, I should be around a bit more..well once I get my internet hooked up again anyway. For now, though, thats a wrap.

//Amelia